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So I didn’t keep up with NaBloPoMo for July. Finding out I didn’t get a job that I really wanted had a nice (ha) depressing effect on me. I know it’s truly out of my control, and all I can do is keep on trying. Some of the circumstances surrounding the people who did get positions I wanted are more than a little fishy, but I’m over it. They’ll get theirs someday, I’m sure – karma is a bitch. I have confidence that there is a reason I didn’t get this job at this time. I just hope something better comes along eventually.

No phone call after the board meeting last night. That means no new job. And to me, that means a chance that things won’t be alright eventually. I just don’t understand what I have to do to get a job around here. I’m very disappointed in myself, even though I know that I had no control over the situation. And I’m also very disappointed in the school system, as I’ve seen many teachers who should no longer be teaching and some new ones who are horrible teachers. Unions should not exist to protect bad teachers. That’s all I’m going to say. I could comment on it all day if I wanted, but what’s the point when it won’t ever change?

I’m so ready to know if I got the job or not. The board meeting isn’t until tomorrow at 7 pm. I’m hoping I’ll know by tomorrow at this time. I will probably cry if I don’t get this job because there haven’t been that many jobs advertised this summer. Hell, I’ll probably cry if I DO get this job. I feel like the interview didn’t go that great – I felt awkward and like I didn’t know the answer to anything. I really just hope something gives and this goes my way for once.

Happy anniversary, Jack! It’s so hard to believe that we’ve already been married for two years. Time has definitely flown by and things aren’t always easy. I’m so happy and lucky to have you, and one very silly kitty that makes it a point to insert herself into nearly every situation. I love you!

I had the job interview yesterday. I always feel like I royally screwed up. Jack says it doesn’t matter what happens, but for me, so much rides on getting a job this year. It’s just so frustrating to constantly see people who are younger than me and less experienced getting jobs. I’d like to say that it’s my turn for once but I’m not that confident. Something has to eventually go our way. Things can’t stay bad forever…right?